Scrapbook of My World, Thoughts & Fancies

Don’t Blame Me Do you know why I at times hate you, Maintain Silence, show indifference, Say things indirectly, often to hurt you? Because you gave me so much pleasure, It fuelled my desire to seek you over and over, Making me ever dependent on your love; When I am in desperate need of you, But you don’t make yourself available, It starts charcoaling my body, Snapping my fuse of sanity; Then I lose my discretion, Fail to empathise your indisposition, My craze for you overpowers my reason, And I end up being cruel to you! -Songs of a Stringed Soul By Shri Ranjit Kumar Das

दम दे मिया वे असा नौकर तेरे नौकर तेरे - नौकर तेरे, असा नौकर तेरे दम दे मिया वे असा नौकर तेरे नौकर तेरे - नौकर तेरे,असा नौकर तेरे दम दे पिया वे असा नौकर तेरे एस विगड़ी नु अल्लाह आप सवारे एस विगड़ी नु अल्लाह आप सवारे झगड़े वि सारे आप नवीड़े दम दे मिया वे असा नौकर तेरे नौकर तेरे - नौकर तेरे, असा नौकर तेरे दम दे पिया वे असा नौकर तेरे इश्क समन्दर गोरख धंदा इश्क समन्दर गोरख धंदा ओधर जावन डुब जान जेडे दम दे मिया वे असा नौकर तेरे नौकर तेरे - नौकर तेरे, असा नौकर तेरे दम दे पिया वे आसा नौकर तेरे आसा प्यार करदे, करदे ने गल्ला असा प्यार करदे, करदे ने गल्ला दावे करण लाये होर भतेरे दम दे मिया वे असा नौकर तेरे नौकर तेरे - नौकर तेरे, असा नौकर तेरे दम दे पिया वे आसा नौकर तेरे

I am back after a long gap today as I have entered a new phase of my life. This part of my life is known as the 'Risk Phase'. I have moved from the 'Honeymoon' period to the period of a 'Widower'. I have divorced rather killed my happy go lucky life in order to chase my unrealistic dream. Unrealistic - is the word I am using here deliberately as I am not born with those special qualities which are needed to make it real rather I have to mold myself to those special characteristic features. Today I am feeling a bit low, so I have decided to write my feelings to all my friends so as they can laugh\cry\hate\envy\pity\sympathize at me. As said its better to share rather than hold. I don't know what will the outcome be tomorrow but I have decided and made a bargain deal with life. I have read it some where-" First decide what you want to achieve then sit down to discuss and finally pay the price for it". I have done the same. But still sometimes the ima...